So many changes!

And yet so many things remain the same… There is so much to write about!! I guess I’ll tackle one topic at a time!

We were all in sad shape about 3 weeks ago, just before we went on vacation. G (my 2.5 year old) was having diarrhea a week after finishing up antibiotics (which might or might have not helped heal his ear infection and did not do anything for his cough) which led to diaper rash (only second time in his life – he hasn’t had diaper rash since he was like 6 months old!!). A (my almost 8 year old) was having anxiety which leads to sore tummy and throwing up (or attempting to). DH and I both woke up early in the morning (think 3am) on the day of our trip with the big D. DH was also having chest and shoulder pains, numbness in arm and leg and trouble breathing. After a brief visit to the doctor (heart, lungs and BP all good) he wound up with a prescription that he took for only 2 days. He was down and out, barely able to move.

We got to the airport just fine. DH was feeling better. A threw up on the curb just outside the airport but since he didn’t eat anything it was only bile. I kept checking on G to make sure to catch his D and change him ASAP. We got to the gate early and I left the guys there in search of food. I wound up getting some sandwiches at Atlanta Bread Company and ate the eggs/ham/bacon off one. Everyone seemed to be doing well and was in good spirits. The flight went well and we got to Aruba early Saturday afternoon.

Ahhhhh… Aruba. The pictures say it all:

We spent a week there. We had a small apartment-like hotel room so full size fridge, cook top and convection oven. We cooked breakfasts at home and took snacks to the beach (I loaded up on Lara bars in the States before going). Then we went out for dinner in the afternoons. Seafood is great here and there are plenty of groceries for us GAPS folks. I even splurged on French and New Zealand butter – yum!! I must say I did cheat, having small amounts of sugar here and there and eating lightly breaded fish in a Thai restaurant. No ill effects. We soaked in the ocean – G’s diaper rash cleaned up in a matter of one day… Everyone felt great.
We’re back from vacation now – 2 weeks or so – and things are not looking so great. We’re all coughing and have runny noses. I’m sure AC has something to do with – we’ve been enduring 100+ degree temperatures for almost a week. Hopefully it will clear up soon. G is having a bit of the big D again. A is becoming pickier and pickier. I’ve been experimenting with nonGAPS foods again and having mixed results. A and I got food poisoning a few days ago and were miserable for 2 days. We’ve eaten out quite a few times since we’ve been back and I’ve been trying to get back into the swing of things with cooking. Some of my digestive issues came back after I let go with having some sugar so I’m back to honey only. Basically some rice pasta or potatoes are fine once in a while and I’ve even had some GF bread but I won’t be buying any more. I really need to stick to meat and veggies for a while and definitely need more broth. It’s so tough to have it during the summer….
I hope to get back to regular posts soon… It’s been a bit hectic at work and with the kids being in summer camp. Work should be back to normal in a few weeks..

I hate it!!!

G is on antibiotics for the first time. He’s almost 2.5 and I hate it!! This is a culmination of him being sick for over 2 weeks, ending with an ear infection and nasty stuff in the throat. His symptoms were unusual so I didn’t recognize an ear infection or I would have treated it differently (garlic oil in ears and more chiro adjustments – he normally gets them weekly, if needed). Lesson learned, definitely. A only had one ear infection around the age of 2. My hope is that by using antibiotics we will get rid of the coughing, sneezing, runny nose and the ear infection and then work on rebuilding and strengthening his immune system. Being in daycare is sure taking a toll and, to add insult to injury, he’s becoming more and more picky so getting good stuff into him is a struggle. Everything is a struggle!! sigh…

I’ve been trying some non-GAPS items with success. I had some lentil soup over the weekend and I did fine. I have not tried rice but had some potatoes and that was okay, too. Small amounts of sugar (less than 10 g) seem to be okay as well. I bought some coconut milk green tea ice cream on Sunday that is heavenly!! I’ve also indulged in some dark chocolate probiotic bars that are amazingly good….

Kids are doing good, overall. A is finishing school this week and has been eating pretty well. G is doing fine, under the circumstances. I’m hoping once he recovers I can load him up with fresh fruit and veggies, kefir, probiotics and SK. I have a half-gallon jar of red SK that should be ready shortly.. can’t wait!! Red SK has definitely become a favorite ferment of mine lately.

Update 5/22 around 11am
Went to the chiro yesterday and sure enough G’s atlas was out to the right (the ear infection is in the right ear). How I hate that he got it on the weekend!! I sent some yogurt to school today mixed with probiotics. Because of the timing of the antibiotics, I can’t give G any good bugs at home (too close to the medicine time). So I’ll have to wait until the medicine is done with (sigh)… His nose is still running pretty badly and he coughs up a storm in the morning. I just found out another kid has a sinus infection and is on antibiotics as well…. man, do they hand it out like candy!! I hate it!!! I wish I could stay home for a week and make G all better without this stuff but I can’t… I just hope I can rebuild his immune system so he can keep healthy around all these runny noses.

Food diaries – 5/21
B: scrambled eggs with ghee, strip of bacon, pancakes with butter
L: borscht with pate, 1/2 avocado, kefired cream, SK, peach, probiotic chocolate bar, coffee with creamer
D: picnic: cold fried chicken, broccoli and green beans with  homemade ranch dressing, peach, few pretzels, kefir smoothie

Food diaries – 5/22
B: eggs over ham with cheese
L: meatballs with spicy tomato sauce, sauteed peppers in lard, 1/2 avocado, kefired cream, red SK, probiotic chocolate bar, coffee with creamer, water
D: baked chicken legs, veggies (peppers? zucchini? green beans?)

The last week

I wanted to summarize the last 2 weeks for those of you that might send your children to school. As I have mentioned before, last week was G’s first week at daycare. Overall he did remarkably well!! He ate pretty much everything, didn’t cry (much) and seemed excited and happy to be there. So here we go:

The good
It’s nice to have both kids in school and not have to worry about someone being late, not showing up, sick, going on vacation, etc. They are both within a mile of home and in places that, while not being home, are giving them good care. G did great and is slowly coming out of his shell, being and interacting with other kids, playing with new toys, not following the teacher all the time, etc.

The bad
G got sick towards the end of his first week. Not surprising when almost all kids in the class are running around with runny noses. He’s stuffed up and has a nasty cough (fortunately it’s wet now and clearing up). He won’t take medicine so I’ve been putting a cough syrup and Umcka drops in his tea. He has been steadily improving and what’s important his behavior remains upbeat. I do have to get up earlier and basically fix breakfast and lunch for 3 plus 2 snacks for G. I do as much as I can the night before and so far have managed okay.

There really is not an ‘ugly’ here. G has been eating most of what I have been sending but I have to wait until he’s healthy again before making judgement. I bought some new snack-sized containers since I was sending snacks that were too big and he was not eating his lunch. I have sent a fresh snack (strawberries, blueberries, banana) and dry snacks (Annie’s bunnies, GF pretzels, raisins, butter cookies, cereal – so far nothing homemade but I’ll get there). For lunches I have done pizza, meatballs in tomato sauce with veggies and a bit of noodles, roasted chicken with veggies and rice, turkey sandwich, quesadillas… These are not all GAPS legal, of course, but he’s been eating. I think he still has to adapt to eating quickly and not looking so much as other kids. We’ll all get there!!

I have to mention I have eaten some clearly non GAPS things the past week and got a crampy stomachache afterwards. I’m not certain if it was the Rapadura in a smoothie or bits of rice mixed into my veggies. Eating out has been fine – the only illegals I’ve done are a few tortilla chips. I also do bits of sugar here and there, like a square of dark chocolate, but generally keep to honey only. I’m about to buy some dried stevia and see how that can be used (the liquid I have leaves a bit of an aftertaste so I use it sparingly).

I also have to mention that in addition to G starting school last week, DH has been working long days, not getting home till 8 or 8:30 at night. That means all cooking/reheating, feeding, cleaning up and washing has been left up to me. I also had several appointments: looking into summer camps for A, lunch at A’s school, chess trophy day at A’s school, picnic at A’s school, etc. I have tried not to stress about these things (and been mostly successful). I have one event today and one more next Friday and then we’re done. Last day of school is May 24. I’ll be making final decisions about summer camps this weekend.

Food diary
B: scrambled eggs with cheese, almond flour pancakes with butter
L: meatballs in spicy tomato sauce with broccoli rabe, green beans and zucchini/squash, SK, watered down coffee with plain creamer

I need to make more pumpkin/squash pancakes. They seem to fill me up better than the almond flour ones. I wonder if I can bake up a whole pan like I do with the almond flour pancakes…. I also need to make more red SK. I ran out and I’m eating my ‘cole slaw’ SK: cabbage, carrots, radish greens. Not bad, but not as tasty as my red SK!!! My tax refunds have come in so I’m about to order some BioKult and a reverse osmosis filter. There are also a few odds and ends I’ve been meaning to order but these two will be the priciest (I want to get 10 bottles of BioKult to get the price break).

Changes

Time for another post! We’ve had some changes around here…

My younger son (turned 2 in January) is going through his first week at daycare. Our nanny had to leave for health reasons. Of course I’m packing G’s lunch and both snacks (right now he eats half his breakfast at home and leftovers at the school). Have you seen some school menus lately? Processed food galore… no, thanks. Honestly, I don’t think G would even eat it – he’s used to homecooked meals and fresh fruit. Even when we go out to eat, he likes simple things (grilled chicken or steak) or more homey foods (like an Italian place we go to that has awesome fresh food). So my mornings now start earlier and are a bit busier. I heat up our lunches and prep breakfast for 3 (including my almost 8 year old). I’m keeping things simple (of course). For example, today’s food went like this:
B: French toast with just a smidge of maple syrup (organic challah bread made with butter, whole milk and cream, eggs; cooked in coconut oil); bacon, strawberries
morning snack: blueberries (how much simpler can you get, right?)
L: chicken cutlet (breaded in mix of organic bread crumbs and Parmesan, cooked in coconut oil), carrots cooked in broth, peas with butter – both veggies reheated in butter
afternoon snack: Annie’s organic chocolate chip bunnies

So far G has done great!! Some whimpering when I leave which stops before I even get back to my car. He’s been taking naps and eating pretty much all of his food, too. He slept through the night last night!! This really puts my mind at ease…

I might have commented how my tummy seemed more bloated lately… it seems to have gone back to normal. I wonder if it had to do with the starches I was eating (rice, rice pasta, potatoes). I have nixed these for now. I may try some potatoes only and see, but rice is out for now.

Update 2:30pm
I wound up not eating the avocado – I’ll save it for tonight. G was eating very well at school, at least morning snack and lunch. He actually didn’t eat that much for lunch yesterday so he finished his dinner, then proceeded to eat a whole apple, several pistachios, slice of cake.. forget what else. He really filled up!

Food diary
B: 2 scrambled eggs in bacon fat, almond flour pancake with butter, 2 slices of bacon, green tea with honey
L: borscht, 1/2 avocado, red SK, few strawberries, 1/2 small apple, diluted coffee with honey and Primal creamer

Update 10:50am next day
Dinner was ground pork patties (ground pork, marjoram, salt, pepper, egg, fresh parsley, Parmesan) breaded in egg and coconut/almond flour mix. I ate it with creamed spinach and a bit of mashed potato. Both G and A ate very well. G did great for the rest of the day yesterday but this morning he cried when I left… fortunately the teacher is able to soothe him very quickly. His meals today:
B: eggs over ham, pancakes with butter/maple syrup
morning snack: strawberries
L: pizza with squash, zucchini, ham and pineapple, green beans in butter
afternoon snack: trail mix: organic O’s cereal, pistachios, dried pineapple, papaya and raisins

Do you crockpot?

I have recently gone back to browsing this amazing (and slightly scary) blog:
http://crockpot365.blogspot.com/

You guessed it: cooking in the crockpot every day. I manage to use my crockpot once or twice a month and I figured I could use it more if I only found some good recipes. I already use it for applesauce (awesome recipe on the blog above – I skip the sugar and add a touch of honey once the apples have cooled) and chicken stock. I have also crockpotted pork and beef roasts with success. Chicken? Not so much…

Warning to people who love real food: there are some scary things on the website above, including and not limited to Velveeta (ack – who eats that stuff anymore??!!) and other processed items but the recipes are flexible and items can easily be substituted. I tried 2 recipes and they both turned out well. First was honey garlic chicken. This turned out very tasty. I used skinless thighs and drumsticks (saving the skins of my local pastured chickens for crispy pan-fried skins). When the chicken was done, I boiled the sauce in a pan on the stove until thickened. Delicious! My version was actually not GAPS legal (I used wheat free soy sauce and ketchup with sugar) but you can use coconut aminos and GAPS legal ketchup. I also used less honey and soy sauce that the recipe called for.

Next came barbecue pork. I skipped the sugar and Worcestershire sauce. I also used tomato puree and made that into ketchup (adding cider vinegar, honey and spices – this recipe is great). Once the pork was done, I again reduced the sauce on the stove. It turned out quite acidic do I added a bit of honey once it was cool. DH didn’t quite like the flavor but the pork itself is fine so I’ll just save the extra sauce for something else!! I will definitely make the chicken again (maybe tweaking the recipe somewhat). Both kids cleaned out their plates. Not sure about the barbecue pork. Next in line are carnitas. I’m picking up a few things on the store today and putting it in overnight.

I’m by no means done with the website. I already have several more recipes to try: pizza chicken, Korean beef, etc. And there are so many more to browse!! I’m hoping that by doing more things in the crockpot I can cut down on the time spent in the kitchen (especially in the summer when it gets wickedly hot).

Food diary
B: scrambled eggs in ghee with extra butter, sausage patties, pancakes with butter
L: chicken broth with meatballs and carrots, red SK, 1/2 avocado, kefired milk/cream, peanut butter with butter and honey, coffee with Primal creamer
D: crockpot pork with veggies (I have honey carrots, green beans, zucchini, brussel sprouts…wow!)

Update 9:50am next day…
We wound up going out last night: wings and burgers. I had a bunless burger with bacon, cheese, onions and pickles. I stole a few fries and a couple of wings off DH’s plate and had some half sweet/half unsweet tea. I was sure I would feel terrible this morning – but I don’t. I happen to love this restaurant’s burgers (not much else) but we only eat there every 2-3 months…. back to home cooking tonight!

Not as well as I thought…

So I’ve been experimenting with non GAPS foods, namely rice, rice noodles (Tinkyada) and potatoes. I have to admit I have not been doing this very scientifically, i.e. slowly, in order, etc. And that may have contributed to my problem. I have experienced some cramps and stomach pains after eating the above. Not very bad, but bad enough where I want to get back to where I didn’t have them… so the starches are out, for now. I’m determined to do more broth and try potatoes in a little while. While I’m eating other healing foods: ferments, eggs, avocadoes, kefired milk/cream, I really have to focus on broth because that is what heals and seals the gut.

Speaking of ferments, I was inspired by this post to experiment: http://www.cheeseslave.com/real-food-kitchen-tour-life-from-scratch/. So I set up my own fermented coleslaw: cabbage, carrots and radish tops (I got some beautiful local radishes at the market and the tops looked so fresh, I hated to throw them out – I usually use them in kimchi but my last batch didn’t turn out and I really didn’t want to buy all the extra ingredients to make it). I added caraway and dill as flavorings. I must say it looks and smells great! We’ll see how it turns out.

I’ve been gaining weight – nothing alarming, just a few pounds but I’m noticing that some of my pants don’t fit anymore in the waist. I wonder if I have inflammation due to those starches I’ve been eating. I’ll be watching to see if it goes down after I give them up again.

Food diary
B: Applegate beef hot dogs with mustard, Jack cheese, pancakes with strawberries and butter
L: tomato soup, red SK, 1/2 avocado, kefired cream, coffee with Paleo creamer, apple
D: mix of chicken and pork done in crockpot, green beans, carrots, 1/2 glass red wine, strawberries and bananas with whipped cream – more details to come in next post…

More lessons: gluten is definitely out…

I’ve been experimenting with non-GAPS foods. I don’t really miss them much but it’s nice to have the occasional bit of rice or potato when eating out. I’ve come to the conclusion that I can have a bit of rice, rice noodles, beans and potatoes without issues. I recently had some of those items when eating out and did fine. However, the onion rings I had (just 2) did not go over well at all. We’re talking stomach cramps and sharp pains in the abdominal area when I could barely breathe. Won’t be doing that again. I have been able to eat things thickened with arrowroot. I use it for stews and such. Very happy to find this out as I no longer have to separate my portion from the the family’s. I have also gone back to using commercial sour cream (Daisy brand which only has cultured cream as ingredient). I can handle tiny amounts of sugar as well – I usually keep it to 1g per serving or less.

I’m trying to stay focused on healing foods: broth, ferments, probiotics, etc. I’m eating maybe 1 serving of fruit a day and basically no baked items. I do have a few nut butter pancakes in the morning (always with tons of butter) and I consider that my ‘treat’. Coffee has been going over well, too. I do half regular/half decaf and I water that even more. I use mostly Primal creamer (coconut milk or cream) with occasional creamer – no ill effects. I have not tried raw milk yet – I’ve been buying low-temp pasteurized and I don’t care to drink that right now.

I’m loving kefir!! I quit drinking it years ago while on WAPF diet because I just couldn’t stand the taste. I now I have a cup or two every day and could do much, much more!! I kefir milk, half and half and cream and love all 3. My local Whole Foods just started carrying fairly local (I’m in GA – this is AL milk) non homogenized cream and I’m psyched!! I shop there every week and now I won’t have to go 1 hour away to get good cream. Awesome!! The same company has milk as well and it was actually sold out last time I was there. I’ll be on the lookout…

Kids are doing okay. A is still picky as ever and G has become quite picky as well. I still offer good foods and occasionally resort to turkey/cheese/SK plates but all in all I can’t complain. I’m buying whole milk flavored kefir for A’s snacks at school (no additives, whole milk, low sugar) and he loves it. Much better choice than granola bars so I’m not complaining… I’m thinking with A it’s a behavior issue as he has been saying ‘no’ to a lot of things lately – as if he just figured out he could say it so he’s exercising that power freely. I’m hoping to ride it out and for him to get back to his old self.

Food has been simply around here. I’m sticking to tried and true favorites for lunch plus my regular add-ons: kefir, 1/2 avocado and red SK. I have a bit of GAPS chocolate or a baked good or a serving of fruit as a ‘sweet’. I also treat my coffee as a treat or occasional soaked nuts. My sinuses seem clear and my BMs are a regular daily occurence. I don’t burp or have gas.

All in all, I’m happy where I am with GAPS. I know I need to be doing more probiotics and more broth. I’m getting a large tax refund this year and I’m going to get 2 things by this summer: a water filter and BioKult. There has been a lot of talk in the online community about eating grains but honestly I don’t miss them and I know my body can’t handle them right now. Eventually I’d like to have some rice and potatoes and possibly some gluten gree grains, properly prepared, but not yet. I’m doing okay now with no grains: I have plenty of energy, my cycle is lighter than normal and regular, BMs are normal, etc. So I’m going to listen to my body for now and keep doing GAPS. I’m in my 2nd year now and I know this is pretty average for GAPSters. I’m going to keep on eating healing foods and re-evaluate as needed.

Food diary
B: 2 Applegate beef hot dogs with mustard, Gouda cheese, 3 nut butter pancakes with butter, green tea with honey and ginger
L: tomato soup (tomato puree, chicken broth, sour cream), 1/2 avocado, red SK, kefir, strawberries (local!), coffee with chocolate Primal creamer and honey
D: Buffalo chicken, some potatoes?, some veggies (not sure yet…)

Lessons learned…

I’ve been trying to add nonGAPS items to my menu, mainly some potatoes and rice noodles. The potatoes are going over pretty well. I notice no symptoms when adding a small amount of potatoes (so far I’ve tried mashed and homemade French fries in coconut oil). There is no bloating, tummy ache, gas, etc. Good news!

I don’t think rice noodles went over that well… I’ll have to try them again with no other ‘suspicious’ items to see for sure.

I definitely went overboard this weekend. At the Mexican place I did okay: shrimp fajitas with fixings, few bites of refried beans and some chips. No problems. But DH wanted wings last night so I had some, too. With not much else: few fries, few fried mushrooms. Definitely NOT a good idea. I honestly didn’t even enjoy them that much…. and had some tummyaches to follow. I’m totally bloated this morning and can’t button my pants!!

I did make a pizza last night with an almond flour crust and that was heavenly!! I did use some non GAPS legal ham and pepperoni (no nitrites but some sugar with still 0g per serving) and mozzarella but no issues. I honestly don’t think the bloating is due to the cheese (I have been able to handle all cheeses well, even non GAPS ones).

I’ve been battling a sinus infection with neti pot flushes (I did some salt water and probiotics – the probiotic flush almost did me in: the burn!!!). I am much better but plan to continue the flushes (best I can) all this week.

Update on kids… A is doing well. Actually eating his lunches (mostly sandwiches). I’ve started buying some kefir for him (full fat, only 10g of sugar per serving) in funky containers he likes for his snack. Not the best, but I plan to find some neat containers for him so he can start taking homemade kefir soon (he will drink it at home.. most of the time). I’ve gone back to ‘sweet’ breakfasts for him out of convenience (croissants with apples or chocolate, sometimes PB and J on croissant)… I’m going to rethink that. I plan to start giving him some veggies in his sandwiches once spring really kicks in and there are more fresh veggies. He likes to tag along when I go to a local market on Saturday mornings so I may have him pick something out…

G is doing okay, too. He had a new babysitter/nanny last week and continues this week so he’s a bit stressed. He’s been eating soup for lunch (broth!!) and less sweets/carbs, too. Jana takes him outside for long spells so he’s been sleeping during the day. He liked my homemade pizza better than the guys’ standard version!! He’s talking up a storm and even started learning a few letters!! Amazing… (he turned 2 in January).

Food diary
B: scrambled eggs with butter, almond flour pancakes with strawberries and butter
L: ground beef casserole with extra broth and cauliflower, red SK, 1/2 avocado with EVOO, tangerine, PBC bar, coffee with Primal creamer/honey

I took it easy with breakfast (no meat). The pancakes were soaked in kefir and the strawberries are local and organic (from FL; I’m in GA – I consider that local). I made the PBC bars (actually with almonds, not peanuts) for my son but they turned out too wet for his liking. I’m going to make them again and cook them a bit longer. They are delicious to me!! I eat them cold from the fridge.

Update 9:20am next day
D: crockpot beef with gravy (I did use a bit of arrowroot to thicken – it seems I’m okay with that), mashed potatoes, peas and carrots, chai tea with Primal creamer

I slept like a log.. I don’t think G was up at all – he nursed this morning instead. Feeling well. I did notice I’ve gained some weight. I used to be between 105 and 110 but now I’m weighed as much as 112. Not sure if this will continue…. I’ll keep an eye on it.

It’s a new day!

And I’m in a much better mood (could that square of dark Ghirardelli chocolate with cool mint filling that I had yesterday have helped? hmm….). What else is there to do but press on??

Food diary
B: eggs over Applegate ham (not GAPS legal but 0g of sugar per serving and no nitrates/nitrites), pancakes with butter
L: Cobb salad (lettuce, tomato, avocado, Bleu cheese, chicken, candied bacon, olives) with BBQ ranch dressing (I’m sure there is sugar in the bacon and there is some other stuff in the dressing but this salad rocks!!), SK, coffee with regular creamer and a bit of sugar, kefir

DH is taking care of G (2 years old) while my nanny is out. They came over and took me to lunch. It was fun!! I almost always have the salad while there and it’s delicious! I actually only had half and packed the rest to take home. Not sure what dinner is tonight… we normally go out so we’ll see. I don’t have any ideas for weekend dinners, either. There is chicken and beef in the freezer plus some leftover roast pork. I think I’m going to make a big pot of veggie soup and maybe some squash soup, too. I could have that for lunch with crockpot beef rib meat. I have some defrosted pureed pumpkin in the fridge so I may make another loaf of pumpkin bread (recipe found here – I made it without the stevia and it was plenty sweet; tasted almost like gingerbread!) or a few pancakes. I still have a bowl of sourdough pancakes left for next week (recipe found here – I soaked the flour in kefir overnight, then mixed and baked).

D: out to Italian: 1/2 mozarella stick with marinara, grilled mahi-mahi with artichoke hearts and roasted red peppers in creamy sauce, sauteed spinach with garlic, goat cheese with sun dried tomatoes and basil, sparkling water, Ghirardelli square

Not too bad. We’ll see at night (sometimes I used to get a tummyache then, sometimes in the morning). I think we’ll be cutting down on going out now. We have some plane tickets to buy and a vacation to take in June. I’m going to splurge on honey bacon tomorrow but otherwise I’ll be keeping things simple. Good night.

So disappointed…

I had everything planned out… food was prepared, I had ideas for soups, etc. And I could barely make it a week. Darn…. I always tell people to do what they can and add more in little steps as they are able. I guess I could use some of my own advice right about now….

I think I have to take a hard look at all my responsibilities right now. I work full time which means away from home for almost 10 hours a day. I have 2 kids with two very different sets of needs: one is 2 years old and a dynamo and the other is a 7.5 2nd grader. DH often gets home close to 8pm which means he is no help in cooking, cleaning or helping out with the kids. By the time he gets home they’re fed and washed. DH likes to go out to eat on Fridays and after a whole week of making breakfasts, lunches for school/work, lunch for G so the nanny can feed him, dinners at home, etc. I’m ready to have a break. All of this just doesn’t jive well with intro….

So I did the best I could. I had broth every day, I did my probiotic and FCLO in the mornings. I had simple legal teas with fresh ginger. I juiced on the weekend and did a GAPS shake. I made nut bread. And there are still things I did not do!! It’s just too much at this point… I think I had some die-off which means I still have issues to heal (some dizziness and nausea plus some gas even though I had no illegal sugar).

So I’m off intro for now and I’m getting back to doing full GAPS ‘right’. No illegals, especially sugar. I’m getting ready to order a bunch of sausage for breakfasts and I’m going to get some GAPS legal bacon. I still have almost a gallon of broth made so I’m going to have at least a cup a day – no exceptions. I’m still going to do FCLO and probiotic in the morning, but if I can’t I’ll take it in the pm. My breakfasts and lunches are pretty structured and include only intro-legal items anyway. I’ve been craving chocolate but I’m going to hold off for a bit longer to introduce it back.

Food diary
B: 3 Applegate hot dogs with mustard and butter, sourdough pancakes with butter, tea with honey (forgot ginger)
L: lettuce wraps (ham, turkey, cheese, tomato, cucumber) dipped in mayo, SK, kefir, tangerine
D: roasted chicken with juices and fat sauteed with cauliflower and green beans (additional butter), CP in water

The wraps were good but did not satisfy. I think I need something with more fat in it and it’s hard to do that in a sandwich. I’m going to go back to warm lunches for now. Besides neither the turkey nor ham were GAPS legal.

Update next day
I’m doing much better today. I got some perspective on what I did and I’m ready to move forward.

Food diary
B: scrambled eggs with sausage, sourdough pancakes with butter, tea with ginger and honey
L: kefir, handful of almonds, ground beef casserole with fresh basil, 1/2 avocado with EVOO, red SK, water
D: crockpot beef rib meat with sauce, green beans, fresh mushrooms, water, Ghirardelli square (I know, Iknow…)

I had some dizziness and nausea this afternoon. Could be because I had kefir on an empty stomach for lunch and I had quite a bit of SK with lunch (G couldn’t get enough of it – he’s got a cold). I took a nap and I feel a bit better. I’m not going to make any decisions now but I’m going to continue with GAPS the best way I can. Right now I feel well but I know there is more healing to come. I’ve been on GAPS for a year now and I can see myself doing another year and maybe adding some more advanced foods (potatoes, lentils). On we go!!